Struggling with making time for God.

I am going to be honest i did not want to write this post for the simple fact that I did not want to admit that I am struggling with making time for God lately. But i know i am not alone in this and i am not the only one who has struggled with this issue. Lately it seems like i turn on the tv before i open my bible. I realized i have been watching entirely too much tv and spending no or very little time with God. so it's no wonder why i have felt so mentally and emotionally drained and unstable for these last few weeks. i walked outside to walk my dog and i instantly felt overwelmed by fear. Now this may not sound like it has anything to do with this blog post, but it is a one of the direct results of my not spending time with God like I should. People often say that the Christian walk is a relationship. I have truly learned some of what that statement encompasses this week. Even in my struggle with this issue God is still there. He is still talking to me whether i want to listen to him or not. It saddens God when i don't spend time with him. He not only desires that i spend time with him, but that he needs that time with me. He is showing me that he not only wants me, but he needs to spend time with me. This blog post may not have much effect on any one else, but i would rather admit my struggle than run from it. there comes a time when you get tired of running. im tired of running.  But God is with me through it all.